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Feb. 7th, 2006 @ 11:52 pm
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So, I realize that I haven't posted for months. I have a good reason, kind of. I got spooked.
Yeah, whatever, I can hear the chants now. But I promise, this one was good.
I wrote up the most delightfully delicious post about one evening between my wife and I, and wasn't paying attention to which LJ I was logged into.
Yes, that's right. I posted a really nasty sex post to my main journal. Which many of my real life friends and acquaintances read.
Luckily, I was able to delete the post within seconds, and I don't think anyone saw it. Oh, God, that would have been humiliating.
Anybody else ever make such a mistake? |
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Aug. 18th, 2005 @ 12:49 am
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So I just spent a little while going back through ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) scottysgirl201's old journal posts. GAWD, what a hottie. And very well spoke, too, I think.
( Anyway, the wife suprised me a few nights ago. )Current Mood:  sleepy |
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A goofy little meme joyfully ganked from hnurse( behind the cut... )
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Aug. 12th, 2005 @ 10:12 pm
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Actually, I just realized something....I only have women (and a couple, I think) in my friends list. Why? Well, I'm not sure, but frankly, I'm not sure I'd like to read about some guy's sexual experiences. I'm not nearly as aroused by a guy's account of sex as I am by a woman's, for one.
And then there's the whole 'not gay' thing.....which I know wouldn't be in jeopardy just by me adding a guy to my friends list on a sex journal. I'm very secure in my sexual identity, really. I don't know. I guess that's one of those taboo things still left over from my youth in a small (minded) town.
And finally, I guess I just haven't found any guys here that I don't think of as stalkers of some type. Naturally, I'm probably no better than them, except in my own mind. They probably think the same of me.
Anyway, I'm not really complaining, just noting a truth which I find interesting.
EDIT: Nevermind. Welcome geekhorndog. *chuckle* It helps to read replies to my journal before I post shit like this. |
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Aug. 12th, 2005 @ 09:50 pm
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Okay, so I haven't updated for a while. I keep thinking about what subject to write on, and in the end, I just wind up going to some pr0n web site and jacking off until I'm half raw.
Oh, and btw, WHAT THE FUCK happened to socalifgrl5? I don't know if she posted anything, but I was hearing from her, and then all of a sudden, her journal just went poof, and she was gone. Damn, I hope she reads this and sends re-friends me. She was not only a total turn on, but also just the kind of sexual conversationalist that I was hoping to find when I started this journal.
In any event, it's not been 6 weeks or better since the wife and I last had sex. One problem that I find is in how we approach it. Her usual pick up line to me is "How do you feel about sex"? Well, Darling, generally speaking, I'm for it. The truth is, however, that the stimulation I get during sex with her is almost purely physical. I'm sure she doesn't get much better from me, but at least she does feel wanted, I think. For me, it's almost like she's giving me pity sex so that I don't go out looking for it elsewhere.
Some days I worry that if I were presented an opportunity to fuck somebody I found attractive that I wouldn't be able to say no. Look, I hate the idea of cheating on my wife, I really do. The truth is, though, that I really love to fuck, too. I SO miss the days of college when the excitement of "will she or won't she?" was so utterly tense. And the feeling when we started to actually have sex, the feeling of both triumph and elation, excitement and even a little bit of fear were all so strong that I could hardly keep myself from shooting all over her tits before she even took me into her mouth (something else that my wife doesn't do, except once or twice a year. Seriously). The thought of having that feeling again, well, let's just say that it does occupy a bit of my time.
I'll try to post again soon, though. I really need to use this journal better. |
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I got to talking with the wife the other day about sexual fantasies. Apparently, she doesn't have them. I used to have them alot more, but I suppose that until recently, I haven't had much fuel for them. Luckily, I started this journal to work on those thoughts, and also to have access to some wonderful new friends that I might not have had the guts to check out without the oh-so-comforting veil of anonymity. Friends like _faerydust and crazysluttyfuck, who are both extremely sexy. So maybe they don't know who I am yet, thanks to their HUGE friends lists, but hey, I'm here, and I'm open with what I'm saying, so....there you have it. Come to think of it, I might need to make this journal friends only or something....
Jul. 23rd, 2005 @ 01:00 am
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Finding time to post is kind of difficult, some days. I share my home office with my wife, although we have different computers. She can look over my shoulder at any time, and occasionally does. Normally, I don't mind, but this journal is supposed to be personal for some time yet, so I tend to be careful about when I post. Today, though, I'm home sick from work, so I have a little time.
( My sister is a swinger )
Jul. 11th, 2005 @ 11:40 am
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One of my favorite fantasies is that of the hot driver. I'm driving down the road, and I see a gorgeous woman in her car. She's a brunette (I have a thing for brunettes), and she doesn't seem to notice me glancing at her from the other lane as we play tag for a half hour or so going down the highway. She passes me, I pass her, we fall in behind one another to pass tractor trailers, etc. She's wearing a revealing tank top, but doesn't seem to be in the mood to be talked to.
( Cut for kindness )
Jun. 26th, 2005 @ 12:11 am
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Okay, so I started this journal to explore some of my sexual frustrations and fantasies. My wife doesn't know about it, and probably won't until I get a few of my thoughts fleshed out (so to speak), which might take a while.
I'm in my thirties, and masturbate almost nightly. My wife enjoys sex, but doesn't have much of a sexual appetite these days. I, on the other hand, have never lost mine. I was born with it, seriously. I remember picturing women naked as a first grader. I've always had sexual thoughts, but have been lousy about putting them into practice. I never kissed a girl until my freshman year of college, but I lost my virginity that same semester (different girls). I've slept with fewer than 10 women, though only 3 or 4 of them were 1 night stands. I've turned a few down, and failed to understand more invitations that I'd like to admit. Frankly, my sex life is a tale of missed opportunities.
I find that I'm enthralled with the idea, if not the practice of swinging. I know my wife hates the idea, so that pretty much makes it a given 'never gonna happen' kind of thing. I find myself staring at women all of the time now. The wife and I have sex rarely, maybe 6 or 8 times a year. I know that if challenged, I could get it up 2 or 3 times during those sessions, but she's a one and done kind of gal. I'd never cheat on her, but don't get me wrong, I think about it OFTEN.
Part of my use for this journal will be to explore my sexual fears and repressions, and perhaps break some of them down. Another part will be just to get off. And finally, I hope to just get some sexual thoughts out in the open, because I've never talked about them to anybody, not even my wife, though I eventually hope to.
Why is it that we're so afraid that people will think we're perverts or think less of us because of some of the sexual thoughts and fantasies that we have?
Jun. 16th, 2005 @ 12:20 pm
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